You are never as tall as when you stand up for yourself.

This week I began my boxing training, and i swear to god I almost died. It was worth the money i paid, and i will continue to go each week. I started out being real slow at the exercises but while at home this week I continued to practice and practice, and by friday I was feeling fitter. Also today I went to a boxing tournament with Omni, and i was shocked. I saw aal the martial arts styles they taught like MMA and kick boxing. I told Omni if i ever want to spar, remind me of this day. It was good to see new fighting styles as well.

The pain is going away from my bruised ribs, but I still need to take the pills. I am still hallucinating at times, and I am really feeling afraid. I can deal with death, monsters and demons, but when i get attacked by a blonde vampire woman, and she is sitting on my chest holding me down, I should not get an erection from it. I can feel her fingernails on my skin as she slits my throat and then I wake up again. White Knight and Omni think I want to be beaten and have a metal studded dildo shove up my arse, but I am not into feeling pain. I don't even know why I feel this way about it, I just end up the same way.

Also this week I joined a Skype group with people from a paranormal board on the internet. They take me seriously, and its funny to talk to other people around the world. So this is a call out to Hawke, Kiwi, Semi-Colon and Chris. Thanks for listening to me. One guy thinks I am hallucinating about vampires because I may be seeing my own death. Doesn't make me feel better. I have decided at 21, Im getting "Better to die on your feet, than live on your knees" in Russian on my arm to remind me to never back down to people pushing me around. That's all for this evening, as always I have been your Angel for this evening.