"Pass me the chainsaw" is always a fun way to start a night of drinking

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!

I'm so sorry to those who still read me, if there are any. I haven't been up to writing this stuff, and I need to get back into the habit. I don't know. I don't know if I should keep the blog, or get rid of it. I most likely will continue my novel, just...idk.

Shit's getting shitty. I might have a new car soon, which will leave me broke again. I miss my friends, and I miss having work. Hopefully with this car, I can get work.

I don't know what more to say right now. I'm truly sorry.

Not a lot to do about. Might as well kill someone...

Once again, I dun goof'd. Sorry guys, I truly am. This week I worked 3 days for traffic control and 2 days for lenards. It's really fucked up, cos they both know i need full time work, but neither of them are willing to give it. Lenards hired a fucking new trainee full-time person, but "forgot" to ask me if I wanted the position. Fucking cunts...

Today is Midnight's birthday, so I say a special shoutout to that bald cunt. I know what I shall get him for his birthday, cos I know he will like it. Not going to mention it here, cos he reads this (I think).

Spoke to Nicky this week too. I do miss her so. I have to remember to bother her everyday.

That's all for this evening. I have been your Angel.

Money can't buy happiness, but it can buy marshmallows and that's similar.

Not alot happened this week. I did some traffic control work on wednesday which was great. We stood around for 4 hours watching them put up a new light pole. I hope to get more work from them. Maybe even full time. Next weekend I'm hanging with Midnight and White Knight which I can't wait for. I need to get as much money together as I can, find a full time job and move out of here by december... I'm so fucking screwed. I'll try to update some time this week for those who follow, but for now I need sleep. I have been your Angel for this evening.

Oh! And also, a friend of mine started a *shudder* Tumblr Here... If you could do me a favour and just ask him something or send it to your friends, he would appreciate it.

Time heals most wounds. Sometimes they get bigger.

Wow... I can't believe I forgot to write a blog for weeks on end. I am so sorry guys.I feel awful. Well, let me tell you how my shits been going for the past few weeks.

I had a shit tonne of job interviews and inductions for construction jobs. I felt like it wasn't getting me anywhere. Then one day, I had a job interview for Ritchies. It was fairly easy, I got dressed up and went in there with a confident smile. I told him what skills I had, and the assistant manager was impressed. I didn't get the job on the floor, but he gave me a job working in the chicken shop. I start in a week, so I feel so excited.

Ever have a friend who was so bad for you, but you don't realize it because you wanted him as a friend or because they owed you money? Yeah, I had a friend like that. From the person who brought you "Why'd you go out with other friends on New Years Eve, when I wanted you here so I could make fun of you?" and "Get my ex-girlfriend back for the umpteenth time.". He got put in jail for running two people over, and I was in Queensland while he was sent away. Fast Forward to a fortnight ago. His mother found out I returned, and has been badgering me to visit her son because his girl left him and his "Best mate", some guy he met last year who stole from him, wanted nothing to do with him. She emailed me again and again about how I needed to buy a car and visit him. Then she tells me I'm a bad friend because I left him. I flipped shit. I sent disturbingly aggressive email to her telling her that it was her son who fucked up, and her son who fell in with the wrong person, and I was trying to get my life in order. I ended it with "If you would like me to visit him, let me buy my fucking car, write up a contract that says he will pay me my fucking money back, and I might consider it." I haven't heard back from her yet, and I hope I don't.

I haven't spoke to Nicole in a while and I feel bad for that. She called me last night, and told me she was angry. I promise I will contact her more. I miss her so much.

My psychosis is getting better, and I plan to tell White Knight this because he doesn't read this blog. Over the past month, I have "re-absorbed" Markov into my mind, wishing him a goodbye and thanks for being there for me. I will keep Alice a bit longer, maybe indefinitely. I don't know. My sleep is getting better, which is making my writing suffer. I will post a new chapter after I post this, as a thanks to those who support me. I hope I can get shit together soon. I don't like living here longer than I should. I have been your Angel for the evening.

The worst thing you can say is nothing at all...Nothing At All....NOTHING AT ALL!!

Forgive me for this. So tired and sick...need sleep.

>Got back to Victoria on Thursday.
>walked 10km on friday
>Dug a trench Saturday.
>Hung out with Midnight and Whitey today.
>missed them
>they missed me.
>Saw Spiderman movie
>LOL'd throughout, making jokes
>Director: Mark Webb.
>LOL'd at that too.
>went home.
>Miss Nicky....
>COME BACK NICKY!!!
>I've
>Been
>Your

>Angel
>For
>This
>Evening.

Find happiness in the smallest things... like heroin.

Well, the flights are booked, and the trip is set. I am moving back to victoria on the 19th of this month, and getting back into absolute work. Dad is getting depressed but I tell  him if I can't work, I can't pay back the cunts I owe money too...and I owe Knight a birthday present. Hopefully I will have more to talk to you guys about. It feels good to know I can start working again. Also, it is my birthday soon, so that should be fun. As a present to all my readers, I am going to post a new chapter. I know I should be getting these out faster, and I am so very sorry. I am having issues with writers block.

Over the week, I have been having some...less than wanted dreams. I mean, they were like a nightmare, but I wasn't afraid. I was hanging from a brick wall and some demonic creature was removing my organs. I realised it was a dream, and called Alice in to talk. We had a chat about stuff, and the demon got angry. He told me to pay attention when he was killing me, and I told him to mind his own fucking buisness, I was talking to my friend. He started to have a bitch and Alice back handed him. I laughed and melted myself off the wall, healing myself up and went for a walk with her.

Nicole has been having some troubles and she has been coming to me about them like a good friend should. She now worries she is making me upset by telling me this stuff, and I tell her it's fine. I like helping her out, and if it makes her happy, I'm happy. It just adds more points in my favour when I start working again and I get angry at her or not even speak to her. I'm still here for her, and she better know it.

That's me for tonight. I have been your Angel for this evening.

Our knowledge has made us cynical; our cleverness, hard and unkind.

Sorry for all the late updates. I guess I am finding it harder and harder to find something to write about. This past few weeks, I slapped a dutch man. Literally smacked him across the face. He complained about how Australia wasn't like his home, and Australia should change, so I bitch slapped the cunt. I told him if he didn't like it here, to go home. I am preparing to move back to Victoria for work, just have to set up work for when I get there. Hopefully I will earn money for a car, and move away from my parents place.

A few weeks ago, it was Knight's birthday. I need to find him a gift, but I don't know what he needs. Maybe scotch. Everyone likes scotch. Few more weeks to my birthday, 21 years old and scared shitless. That's it for me. I have been your Angel for this evening.