What a mother fucking week. I mean fucking seriously, I feel like just stopping the "give a fuck" foundation. Centrelink finally stopped fucking me around with my payments. Took them 3 fucking days to go through a claim form. And this was after I threatened to burn down the office. Fuck the government and all their shit. I found out that Sarah, the girl I was casually fucking, had a fucking boyfriend!!! I saw them at the shopping centre, and when she left him alone, I spoke to him. He was an honest to god nice guy. I FUCKING FELT BAD!!!!!! But I didn't know, so I shouldn't.
I told her I didn't want to deal with her anymore. I told her to fuck off and go be with her boyfriend, if he would take her back. She was crying, saying shit like "Please don't do this to me" and "Why are you raping me?". Okay, maybe not the last one, but she was upset and I was mad. I wanted to hurt her, alot. This went against my moral code of not hitting women. I walked the 10km home, she followed me in her car, begging that I let her drive me home. I looked her in the eyes and said "If I had to sit with you in a car alone, I don't know if I could hold back my rage. I don't hit women, and I don't want to start today." I walked the rest of the way home, and I hope she is crying right now because I couldn't give a shit.
So now it's back to talking to Nicky (yes, I know you are there) and shit. Hell, I started talking to Alice and Markov again. I felt bad for ditching them, I can't sleep again. Life's going back to normal.
Yeah, Fuck you too Life.
Fuck it. I'm out. I have been your Angel for this evening.
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